so blue stars are in town tomorrow. it's basically got me ridiculously on edge and super nervous. not only because i don't know what he is going to be like, but i have no idea how i will react to anything. i might not care. i might need to start drinking by 2. i don't know.

went to one of travis's friends' parties last night. drank some white russians, smoked some, and watched lebowski. just like the good ol days with the homies back in minnesota. ohh the memories...



afterwards we had an... interesting... conversation out in the parking lot. it was kind of nice. because he was so great at stepping around the topic, this is what i basically got out of him: "you're really cute and you're badass and you like metal which is awesome... but you're a smoker" apparently that's all there is to say... which is also boy-code for "i like cuddling with you, but am completely uninterested in everything else... even fucking."

seriously, where do i find these dudes?!?!?

got home to sleep around 5am. slept horribly. work sucked.