i'm still a little drunk and haven't slept, but these are the things i have learned today:

jonathan severance is officially the coolest kid that i will ever know. i will never plutonically love anyone as much him. period.



john loves me. nothing will ever change the fact that he will never want to hurt me and never wanted to hurt me.

i love john. nothing will ever change the fact that i will never want to hurt him and i never wanted to hurt him.

john is a liar. period. completely undeserving of any trust.

we will never get back together. and if we do. it will be on false pretenses or will be based on our emotional instabilities.

things will eventually be okay.

i don't want to be with him anymore. and even though i could have married him, and we could have lived happily ever after, it didn't happen that way. and that is okay. i can learn from this and get over this and that will also be okay.



i am or will be okay.