apparently i'm not just awkward to sleep next to, but also disgusting. thanks. i won't be developing a complex now or anything... and i'm sure this non-smoking, ear infection, wisdom teeth-heaven is doing magical wonders on my amplified purring.



last night best friend and i went to the boiler room to check out a bluegrass band called the boxcar bandits. i was really excited. then they played. and that's when i realized that i don't like bluegrass. oh well. homeboy and i left for lewisville to hang out at some bar attached to a grocery store. that was about the extent of this venue's class. i guess we all just need a reminder sometimes that this is not mengtar's crowd. also, there were black lights and i was under the impression that the mustard stain came out...



i ran into a lot of people i hadn't seen in a while at the boiler room. very few people that i could openly admit to wanting to see. but one of them got fatter. and i laughed... but not too hard... because of the equal conditions act. damn.



sometimes when you do dumb shit, and you know that you do dumb shit, having a good friend yelling at you still isn't completely unnecessary. thanks.



friday was xmas at the mengtar house... for only mengtar... my xmas presents were mailed from minnesota. i got some fucking sweet shit that i will get into whenever i feel like it. or not. it's really my call. not yours.







i wrote the first chapter of my new book... by hand... i obviously didn't get a laptop for xmas. this is going to be the longest writing of a book since the typewriter.



today and yesterday i've been all crazy-depressed-emo kid or whatever and freaking out and wanting to move home like this second. and this will go on until my vagina is half-exploded and i will become happy as bees.



also, the only thing more confusing than waking up with no panties, is waking up fully clothed and uncuddled. maybe i was anger-breathing in my sleep just last night and you deserved it.



cx and i saw juno. it was cute and quotable but whatever. and it takes place in minnesota so it was cool to see the snow and hear them say recognizable town names. mankato and stillwater were mentioned. and the adopted parents lived in st. cloud. ((can i get a whatwhat?))



i bought a travel-sized toothbrush. i'm not planning on traveling with it. i was just planning on leaving it. i just thought it would be less invasive because i don't like people leaving shit in my bathroom. maybe i'm the only one and i could have actually bought a regular one, but i would have felt guilty just the same. i'm over it.





also, this is a mengtar's blog first! tonight i ask for you to pray for my sister for dreaming that she applied at the copper lantern. that place should have been in juno. haha damn i'm awesome.