i started my new job at the olive garden today. it was less than fun. i hate starting new jobs. i constantly feel judged and insecure. although, in past jobs, whenever new people came, i would judge them too... whatever. i mean, i don't want to be myself right away because sometimes i have a bit of an overbearing personality... so i just kind of stick to myself... whatever. people there are alright, i guess. once i'm done training, i'm sure everything will be fine.

john left for tour today. it was very sad. i'm glad we're on good terms despite our countless issues. i love him.

a month ago, i hated it that i still loved him. now i'm okay with it.

i've been working on my tan. i think i'm doing pretty well. i have a late-june tour tan. that'll do.