let's see... john and i hung out last week and things were pretty cool. smoked a bowl or two.



saw the aqua teen hunger force colon movie for the theaters. it was alright. but athf is best done in small, half hour doses. but i still enjoyed it.



the next day i had an anxiety attack at petco and passed out. i'm thinking about buying my crickets somewhere else from now on. or maybe i'll make mike buy them for me. who knows. i just don't want to be "that girl fucked up girl that passed out that one time." but i went to john's to calm myself down a bit, but he was being ridiculously shady and unsupportive even though we had just talked about how we should be there for eachother and support eachother. what the fuck.



so that put me in a horribly upset funk for the rest of the week.



however,

thursday i woke up horrible. was horrible all morning. horrible all afternoon. horrible while i was in the shower. stepped out of the shower ridiculously manic-like, singing and dancing, laughing and smiling. whatever. don't know where that came from, but it was great. so i was in a great mood for the first time since all of this bullshit started.

friday was my birthday. it was alright. the party was big, even though only like half of the people that were supposed to be there actually showed up. oh well, it was still a blast and there were still 20ish people in attendance. peter showed up with the fucking cast of metalocalypse. they were cool.

i also made it a requirement for everyone to be photographed kissing the birthday girl. that only lasted until i got drunklor, then i forgot.

also, i was drunk before anyone really showed up. that is the true megan-party fashion.

post-party was rough. i had maybe 5-7 strong anxiety attacks back-to-back. i was really scared and i think mike was close to bringing me to the hospital or something. it was nice to have someone helping me through it though. he will make a fine medic one day.

quit my job because the new manager is crazy.

applied a few places yesterday and had an interview. supposed to hear back this afternoon. dropping off more applications later.

also, kyle is a rabbit.

there.

you've been fed.