you're right, and you have every right to be upset that i'm unable to see you play in austin. i understand that this tour is a big deal for you. i would love to be there and to finally see you again. it is long overdue.

and you were right about homeboy. i don't know why i continue to put myself into a situation that makes me feel increasingly uncomfortable. and i don't know why you would compare the situations.

but you can't choose my priorities for me. i hold your friendship in high regard, but i also need to be sure i'm taking the correct steps to better myself. i've wasted plenty of time out of school and now know that it is now something i should be taking much more seriously.

i'm extremely proud of you. and not in the "keep in contact with him so you can have a famous friend" sort of way. i'm glad that you're enjoying your life and the payoff of your hard work.

i don't ask to hear your stories so i can live vicariously through you and see what life is like being an LA rockstar. i enjoy hearing that you're enjoying and taking pride in what you do.

and you don't have a right to accuse me of fabricating reasons i'm unable to visit LA or austin. i've tried. and i'm still trying. i've held this in higher regard than you think.

and if you're truly done "wasting your time on me", it's been nice. apparently your standards are higher than what i can offer at this time.

((i guess i just need better friends))